I was expressing to a friend this morning my desire to follow a training/gym program, but having some doubts on scheduling. She and I have been getting to the gym early in the morning (somewhere between 5:30-5:50); we do a very light workout (she does not think it’s a light workout, but it’s only 4 exercises; it was initially 3 and I pushed her to 4) and then we get in the hot tub, the pool, the hot tub again, the steam room, shower, etc. I told her I was concerned because the workouts for the program were anywhere from 25-60 minutes; and doing a 60 minute workout would be tough, especially since pretty soon it will be too hot to ride at any time except in the early morning hours. She said “well you can always take what’s useful and not do the rest of the program.” Something about that just hit me wrong and I’ve been having trouble mentally articulating why until just now.

That’s the whole problem I’ve been having and why I haven’t lost any weight since November – the truth is what “take what’s useful” means half ass a short workout, not push yourself, and then wonder why no progress has been made. Real progress takes real effort (maximum effort, if you will) and I freely acknowledge that not once since November have I put in true maximum effort. The result is being stagnant and stuck without making any significant progress towards goals.

Well I say fuck. that. It’s time for Maximum Effort!!! It’s time to get shit together and stop coming up with fear and excuses and other bullshit. Time to make it fucking happen. Maybe I get up and do light weights with her and then the program at lunch. Maybe I get up at 3:30 every day for 10 weeks. I don’t know, but one way or another I’m god damn going to make something of this summer!