I’m not sure what, exactly, I’m trying to make happen, other than forward movement, which has been a rare thing around here these days.

I kind of want to do 75 hard? And I kind of don’t? But I never finished it last time, bailed on day 63 because I was sure I had Covid (I didn’t.) I’m afraid to commit and fail again but I just coincidentally did everything today that you have to do for it (10 pages of reading, progress pic, a gallon of water (wtf), two 45 minute workouts, one of which is outside….yeah I’m typing this from my bed at 8:45 like a beat-down busted out shell of a woman that I am 😆)

I don’t know if I never noticed it before, or maybe it’s because I turned 46 on Saturday, but everything hurts now. Like after walking I’m so sore & stiff. I know carrying the extra weight is not doing me any favors, so….If I started today, 75 days from now is April 29th. It seems light years ahead, but you know my thoughts are that time passes regardless of what you do, so you can suffer now and be ahead of the game then, or be just as miserable then as you are now. I guess I just talked myself into it.

Is it April yet?