I started reading this book called “Unfuck Yourself”, recommended by a friend, and although I’m only like 10 pages in, the author has already made some really good points about self talk. For example, today’s workout was Chest/Back/Core and it’s not my favorite. In general this workout plan is clearly geared more towards weight loss and a lean (I hate this word) toned look – which is not at all what I ultimately want, but I think it’s what I need right now. Anyhoo, the first time I did this workout, the core stuff just threw me for a loop – I couldn’t do most of it (side note – trainers who say “anyone can do this workout!” are always lying) and I didn’t want to do it and my shoes kept slipping off during the mountain climbers and the gym was crowded and yeah, I just really got in a whiny headspace. Reading the book made me think of that, and how I really sabotaged myself there.

SO….today I tackled it with a determined will, I still couldn’t really do the actual exercises, but I made a sincere attempt and managed to do 6 our of the first set of 12. Then I subbed in other exercises but I put more effort into them and didn’t let myself fall into the “I hate this/I can’t do this/This sucks” thought pattern, I just reminded myself that core strength is important for riding and I’ll get there. It still sucked, but I felt much better about it!