So not taking Vyvanse for two days in the middle of the week is brutal. I took a nap yesterday and today through my lunch, and it’s been so hard to get my shit together. I did manage to do my workouts, but it was also pretty eye-opening how much it affects my energy. Like I used to be so mad at myself for being lazy on the weekends but it turns out I’m not lazy, I’m just coming down off of a meth high from the last week.

I think I wrote before that I was considering weight loss surgery, I got as far as filling out the patient info form, but I never heard back, and then I read more about the diet and it scared me. 1200 calories a day! Forever, theoretically! That would really suck. I’d have to stop lifting weights. I’m not sure I could subsist on that little….like how would I still be active? Could I even still ride? I dunno. It’s probably still worth consulting with the doctor, but I have to get around to calling them.