So I’m back to working out, not quite at my full capacity, but I’m getting it done. I also took Vyvanse for the first time in about a month yesterday and wooo…before I went to work I took out the trash, vacuumed my house, did a workout, cleaned the litter box, put away all my amazon stuff….I think I burned 800 calories before 9am!

As I was working out today, in a moment of clarity, I realized that if I don’t really change my relationship with, and the way I view, food, I’m never going to be successful losing weight. That isn’t meant to be a downer – I think I CAN do that, and I think it’s slowly happening, but just a revelation based on thoughts I had on Sunday (I can have one little treat, tomorrow is the real start since it’s August 1st, etc.) I was thinking of how I used to buy so much of that keto ice cream and just go to town on it, and I pretend I wasn’t binging because it wasn’t the true free-for-all, but it was really just a binge light, a Diet Binge if you will. Maybe Binge Zero?

Anyway. I don’t think I mentioned it but I joined this program called Found a couple of months ago, because they promise weight loss medication (Metformin and GLP-1.) I had to wait for insurance to work out at new job to get the GLP-1 (I hope to pick it up today in fact) but the Metformin has not really been doing anything. I will say this though, they offer text coaching and as much as I was resistant to it, I grudgingly admit its working, or at least helping me realize that I can’t just keep doing the same thing & expect different results. I’m lucky that my general world view is that change is always possible, but extremely difficult. I think if you don’t believe you can change, recovery is going to be pretty much impossible.